Wild Rebel Woman

“I am learning that I was created to be wild. I am learning that I was created to live passionately and fearlessly; but in order to rebel against the sins of this world, and rebel against the sins of my very own flesh!”

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My name is Danielle McEntee. I am a 37 year old woman, wife and mother of three. I serve alongside my husband, who is a high school youth pastor in Los Angeles.

I deal with a lot of females. A lot of women. A lot of teenagers. I have three daughters of my own. I am here to speak to the Ladies. The Women. The Girls.

There is a full blown war going on and we are at the center. We are the targets. As members of the female race, we have been oppressed, we have been abused, we have been taken advantage of, we have been objectified, we have been shoved to the side. And I don’t mean just by our culture either.

We have been targeted by the enemy.

And we have often been targeted by the Church.

God wants us to live fully as women of Christ, to appreciate our femininity, to embrace our beauty, to live with compassion and grace and power and strength! He wants to use us as a Deborah, or an Esther, or a Rahab, or a Mary.

I am convinced that God does not want us to stand timidly in a corner, waiting for our name to be called. He does not want us to be valued and esteemed only by our purity, our virginity, our sex appeal. He won’t stand for our voices to be silenced, our thoughts to be quenched, our ideas and our contributions to be ignored.

Women, we have our own unique journey as Christ followers too. We have a life to live in His will too. We have talents, we have minds, we have wells of knowledge and power and competence.

It does not mean we are called to shut our mouths and never leave our homes. We can be Mary and we can be Martha. We can be called to serve and host and take care of those around us, but we also can stop and sit at the feet of Jesus and learn from Him.

Growing up, I always assumed that a Godly woman was like one of the elder’s wives in church. Turtlenecks, long skirts, floral patterns, quiet smiles, stay-at-home mother, homeschooler, mild mannered, in a constant state of ethereal prayer, always using the term “Praise the Lord” in between every sentence, baking cookies for every event from scratch, never swears, never drinks, never did anything wild or inappropriate, always smiling. Nothing wrong with any of those things, but those things simply are not me.

I strove to be this my entire life. I thought that if I acted Godly enough, I would become Godly enough. A Proverbs 31 woman!

I thought that perhaps, being more withdrawn, more rule following and more gentle, would mean that somehow I was more holy.

Let me tell you something about gentleness, though. Gentleness doesn’t just mean being quiet and restrained. In fact, true gentleness is having strength and power, but having the self-control to restrain that power until it is necessary. That’s why the term is “gentle giant”.

That strength has its time, its place, its use.

I always felt as if I had this unbridled monster living inside of me, one I had to suppress, one I had to contain.

I always felt that my dynamic personality was something that needed to be tamed. But here is the truth: that’s who I was created to be.

My passionate, wild, rebellious spirit needed to be channeled toward my calling in Christ, used for His glory, used for His kingdom and then I would be fulfilling my own personal calling.

The unfortunate thing is that for many years, this force inside of me led me down the wrong road.

I used it to fulfill my own personal desires instead of His own.

I used it to hurt others and myself instead of loving them and myself. I was always searching for the next best thing to fulfill me.

For many reasons, this searching resulted in finding, but not finding anything in the right places.

“I am learning that I was created to be wild. I am learning that I was created to live passionately and fearlessly; but in order to rebel against the sins of this world, and rebel against the sins of my very own flesh!”

As believers we will be offensive to the world. Why? Because the Gospel of Jesus is offensive. It convicts us and reminds us that we are sinful and in need of a Savior. The Gospel highlights the fact that we cannot do it on our own.

I lived for a majority of my life wildly and rebelliously for all the wrong reasons.

When I learned that I’m not called to be “tamed”, that I am not called to suppress the God-given gifts and talents within me, but rather called to use the strength God has given me to live for him, I began embracing who God made me to be.

And when He made me, He made a Wild Rebel Woman.