On July 10th, 2012, a year after God shook Ben and I from our catatonic state of perpetual disobedience, we renewed our marriage vows in front of a handful of our dearest friends and family.
The pastor of our new church (we just couldn’t bring ourselves to continue attending the church where our beloved pastor had killed himself) re-married us and we walked down the aisle with Lucy and Jubilee in our arms.
It was a better memory than our wedding day, for me, because it was in our own home, we planned it all ourselves, we decorated it all ourselves, we mostly paid for it all ourselves and it was on our own terms. Actually, this time, it was on God’s terms.
The vows that Ben had written for me were rewritten based on the 62nd chapter of Isaiah. He replaced Zion with my own name and it’s still the most romantic thing he has ever done for me:
“For Danielle’s sake I will not keep silent,
for her sake I will not remain quiet, till her vindication shines out like the dawn,
her salvation like a blazing torch.
The nations will see her vindication, and all kings her glory;
She will be called by a new name that the mouth of the Lord will bestow.
She will be a crown of splendor in the Lord’s hand,
A royal diadem in the hand of her God.
No longer will they call you Deserted,
or your name Desolate.
For the Lord will take delight in you,
And your land will be married.
As a young man marries a young woman,
So will I marry you.
As a bridegroom rejoices over his bride,
So will your God rejoice over you.
The Lord has made proclamation
To the ends of the earth:
Say to Daughter Danielle,
‘See, your Savior comes!
See, his reward is with him,
And his recompense accompanies him.”
Our family will be called the Holy People.
The Redeemed of the Lord;
And you will be called “Sought Out”
A family no longer forsaken.”
I was redeemed. I was forgiven. I had been given a new name and a new life.
Ben and I were new creations.
Our marriage was a new creation. Our debts were forgotten and our sins were forgiven.
We were not forsaken by the Lord because of our sins.
In fact, He had saved us.
He had sought us out.
I tattooed those words “Sought Out” on my forearm that year and I have not once looked back.